""All That I'm Living For""
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Released September 25, 2006
Length 3:48
Producers Dave Fortman
Label Wind-up Records
Chronology
"Your Star" "All That I'm Living For" "Good Enough"

"All That I'm Living For" is a song on Evanescence's second studio album, The Open Door. It was intended to be the third single from The Open Door, however after listening to requests by the band and fan reactions to the decision, the label chose Sweet Sacrifice in its place.[1] There also is an acoustic version of it.

Background[edit | edit source]

"All That I'm Living For" was co-written by guitarist John LeCompt, who is also credited for programming on the track, and it describes Lee's writing process at night which is present on the first line "All that I can't ignore alone at night/I can feel the night beginning/Separate me from the living."[2] It contains "power chords", elements of electronica, abrasive guitars and Lee's vocals.

In a Metal Edge interview in November 2006, Lee said:

The hard rocking All That I’m Living For focuses on the band itself. Its genesis came from a realization Lee had one day that her band was her life. "I don't do anything else," she says. "I'm writing for the band, touring for the band, doing an interview about the band, or thinking about the next thing I want to write. It’s my life, and I love it, but it’s a love/hate relationship."

Acoustic Version[edit | edit source]

This is the acoustic version of this song. It is available only on the Lithium single disc.

There also is a video in which Amy performs this acoustic version. Former band member John LeCompt plays the guitar in it.

Lyrics[edit | edit source]

Album Version[edit | edit source]

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night

I can feel the night beginning
Separate me from the living
Understanding me after all I've seen

Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only knew how to pull myself apart

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

I believe that dreams are sacred
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby, like a reason why

Like a play of my obsessions
Make me understand the lesson
So I'll find myself, so I won't be lost again

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
To make you see me, to be the one
I could have run forever
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

Should it hurt to love you? Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door? My ghosts are gaining on me

Acoustic Version[edit | edit source]

I can feel the night beginning
Separate me from the living
Understanding me after all I've seen

Piecing every thought together
Find the words to make me better
If I only knew how to pull myself apart

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

I believe that dreams are sacred
Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby, like a reason why

Like a play of my obsessions
Make me understand the lesson
So I'll find myself, so I won't be lost again

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world
To make you see me, to be the one
I could have run forever
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?

All that I'm living for, all that I'm dying for
All that I can't ignore alone at night
All that I'm wanted for although I wanted more
Lock the last open door, my ghosts are gaining on me

Should it hurt to love you? Should I feel like I do?
Should I lock the last open door? My ghosts are gaining on me

References[edit | edit source]

  1. Lee, Amy (January 29, 2007). "Change of heart". EvThreads. Archived from the original on February 6, 2012.
  2. Bottomley, C. (September 18, 2006). "Evanescence: Amy Lee Explains the New Songs". VH1. Archived from the original on October 16, 2006.


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