The song was a last-minute addition to the album. When The Bitter Truth was originally finished, it had no ballads until Amy Lee wrote what Kerrang! called the album's "most astounding track", a gorgeous piano ballad complete with swelling strings from composer David Campbell.
“We were all just going, ‘Hey, you know what? Every album is different – we don’t have to have that [type of] song every time,’” recalls Amy of their thought process. “I was really struggling. I wasn’t feeling full of aggression, and all the strength and power – and there’s so much of that on this album – I just didn’t have any left when we got to that point.”
“Far From Heaven just came out. It just needed to come out of me. That was the last thing on the album. It completed the puzzle.”
She went on explaning the song:
“It’s about questioning my faith. And it’s not like it’s the first time, but it’s just very raw, real and in the hardest way I ever have. Having to really look at it and wonder, ‘Is anybody out there?’ That’s a real question I’ve been asking over the past couple years, through everything, and I don’t have the answers. I never have had the answers. That’s the whole thing that makes belief belief. We just can believe, we don’t know. But it’s not just about that. That’s part of the reason it was so hard to write, I spent two or three weeks just stuck in this funk, like in this depression, trying to get it off my chest because it’s not the way that I feel all the time. But it is a feeling that I have that comes up in me regularly: wondering where the people are that I’ve lost, and thinking about time in a more fluid way.”
The song was partially inspired by her late brother Robby Lee, who died in 2018 after suffering from severe epilepsy, and it focuses on “processing grief and questioning our place in the universe.”
- Amy Lee - vocals, piano, songwriting
- Tiago Nunez - programming
- Chris Vrenna - additional programming
- David Campbell - strings arrangement
- Alan Umstead - strings contractor, concertmaster
- Nashville Music Scoring Orchestra - strings
- Nick Spezia - strings engineer
- Nick Raskulinecz - production
- Ted Jensen - mastering engineer
- "I needed to face the abyss head on". March 10, 2021. Kerrang!.
- "The Not-So 'Bitter Truth' About Evanescence's First Album of New Music in a Decade". April 2, 2021. Billboard.