"Far From Heaven"
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Released March 26, 2021
Length 4:56
Producers Nick Raskulinecz
Label BMG
Chronology
'The Bitter Truth'
"Take Cover" "Far From Heaven" "Part of Me"


"Far From Heaven" is the tenth track on Evanescence's fifth studio album, The Bitter Truth.

Background[edit | edit source]

The song was a last-minute addition to the album. When The Bitter Truth was originally finished, it had no ballads until Amy Lee wrote what Kerrang! called the album's "most astounding track", a gorgeous piano ballad complete with swelling strings from composer David Campbell.[1]

“We were all just going, ​‘Hey, you know what? Every album is different – we don’t have to have that [type of] song every time,’” recalls Amy of their thought process. “I was really struggling. I wasn’t feeling full of aggression, and all the strength and power – and there’s so much of that on this album – I just didn’t have any left when we got to that point.”

“Far From Heaven just came out. It just needed to come out of me. That was the last thing on the album. It completed the puzzle.”

She went on explaning the song:[1]

“It’s about questioning my faith. And it’s not like it’s the first time, but it’s just very raw, real and in the hardest way I ever have. Having to really look at it and wonder, ​‘Is anybody out there?’ That’s a real question I’ve been asking over the past couple years, through everything, and I don’t have the answers. I never have had the answers. That’s the whole thing that makes belief belief. We just can believe, we don’t know. But it’s not just about that. That’s part of the reason it was so hard to write, I spent two or three weeks just stuck in this funk, like in this depression, trying to get it off my chest because it’s not the way that I feel all the time. But it is a feeling that I have that comes up in me regularly: wondering where the people are that I’ve lost, and thinking about time in a more fluid way.”

The song was partially inspired by her late brother Robby Lee, who died in 2018 after suffering from severe epilepsy, and it focuses on “processing grief and questioning our place in the universe.”[2]

When she played the finished album for her family on Christmas 2020, this song made her father cry.[1]

Lyrics[edit | edit source]

Give me a reason
Make me whole again
Wounds should become scars
But I'm cracked instead
Can't risk believing
That I won't stand a chance
Frozen in the doorway
Don't wanna leave the past

One more night
What I wouldn’t give to be with you
For one more night

What if I can't see your light anymore?
'Cause I've spent too long in the dark
And I'm on my knees
Without shame begging to believe but I feel
So far from heaven

Wake up to a new day
Break my heart again
Dreaming makes for sweet escape
But I can't forget
I'm back at the edge now
I never needed you more
Staring down the emptiness that I can't ignore

All my life
Didn't wanna dream I could lose you
But you just smiled...

What if I can't see your light anymore?
'Cause I've spent too long in the dark
And I'm on my knees
Without shame begging to believe but I feel
So far from heaven

Is anyone out there? Did you give up on us?
Break this silence, I'm crushed under love
I don't wanna lock down, but we've lost so much
Will you forgive me?

If I can't see your light anymore
'Cause I've spent too long in the dark
And I'm on my knees
Without shame begging to believe but I feel
So far from heaven

I feel so far

Audio[edit | edit source]

Credits[edit | edit source]

  • Amy Lee - vocals, piano, songwriting
  • Tiago Nunez - programming
  • Chris Vrenna - additional programming
  • David Campbell - strings arrangement
  • Alan Umstead - strings contractor, concertmaster
  • Nashville Music Scoring Orchestra - strings
  • Nick Spezia - strings engineer
  • Nick Raskulinecz - production
  • Ted Jensen - mastering engineer

References[edit | edit source]


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